i feel like crying. ive been holding it in. i love him so much i just dont know what to do. we both get mad at stupid things eachother does. him more than me. but when i do, i get shuned, but when he does it, i try so hard to fix it and get over it. I havent been feeling the sex lately. its been quite boring to me. but i dont say anything for obvious reasons. i admit when i get mad, it can be for a stupid reason, but i dont understand why it takes the entire day for him to not talk to me. ive been gaining weight again. ive been breaking out, ive been stressed. ive been encouraging him, i just want him to do something nice for me. i do things for him, but i just want something done for me. something from his heart. something that means something to us. we dont have alot of money and i dont ask of it from him, just something from his heart. i may be spoiled i may be alot of things. but i feel like i give him more than he gives me. and i dont want that. i want it to change. i hate crying over us.