// stong black women dont need men. lol//

So… this is how it is today. Im sad, Im depressed. The breakup didnt hit me this hard. Not until last night. When he actually decided to back off and give me space. Which is a good thing… he can be very angry, obsessive and crazy when he wants to be. But idk why i miss him, or maybe i just miss talking, and loving a person. Yea, i think that’s it. Cause i know, i dont want to be WITH him, but i know that i miss the companionship of a person next to me all the time. This is my first REAL breakup. I’ve had boyfriends, and we have broken up, and i would get sad and cry, but I never loved them. Love was definitely in this one. So that’s why its kind of harder for me. 

I kinda need an alternative to all of this emotion. Hookah and wine have been a prominant thing for the past few weeks. lol…and alot of old movies, cant forget that. 

I just realized that I am not gonna let this day just go by. Im not gonna be depressed, and im not gonna waste my time being depressed. Ill handle this like a STRONG BLACK WOMAN WHO NEEDS NO MAN TO MAKE HER HAPPY! that was my mistake…i thought i did. Obviously, I love not having to answer to no man. I feel free and thank God its 2011 and not no 1800 shit, or else I would prolly be dead from rebelling away from slavery or my husband lol. Make Money, and Do what you gotta do Ollie…. 

Ollie Out